Do you ever get that feeling that life is flying by far too quickly? Like you need time to just stop and take a moment to catch up with your thoughts and responsibilities instead of always feeling like you are getting left behind.
Normally I manage to keep quite self-motivated and look at the positive aspects of life to get the most out of each and every day but recently it feels like I have been constantly busy completing daily tasks, revising for exams or trying to plan my future and career and all the other things that come with being an independent university student and I know that none of these are really wasting time, that revision and working hard will benefit me in the long run, but it just feels like these things are keeping me from being happy and actually enjoying life. I can't remember the last time I woke up actually looking forward to the day rather than dreading how stressful and busy its going to be instead.
I kinda wish that time would slow down a little, it feels like everybody else is growing up and changing, getting offered amazing opportunities and jobs, gaining their degrees, finding happy relationships and generally moving on in life. Although I know how far I have come too, I just still feel the same as I did a few years ago with nothing to show for it except a whole lot of debt. Sure, I have started the weird and wonderful world of university and everyone always says that 'you will appreciate it when you're older and in a stable job with lots of money' but its hard to appreciate it at the moment when you're not really seeing any short term effects, and will a job where you earn a lot of money really buy you happiness? I have always been a big believer of the fact that happiness in life is all about the amazing experiences that you have and the people that you share them with rather than the money or material items.
The sad reality of life is that everyone grows up, gains tonnes of responsibilities and in so many cases people become a lot more stressed and unhappy as they get older which really makes me scared that one day I will wake up and suddenly realise that my best years are behind me. In an ideal world, I want to stay young, happy and responsibility free forever, travel the world and experience different cultures, meet new people, do more things that make me happy and actually make something of my life. In 50 years time I would like to be sitting in my little futuristic armchair with a warm mug of coffee and a pack of good ol' ginger nut biscuits and be able to look back with happiness at everything I have managed to achieve over my life and say 'I've made it'.
I am determined not to let negative things hold me back and make me unhappy all the time and no matter what happens I think that I will always be young at heart, getting a thrill out of the little things, enjoying adventures, laughter (there's no better feeling than uncontrollable laughter right?!) and having fun! I read a quote the other day which said:
'The key to happiness is accepting where you are in life and making the most out of each and every day'
Thinking about it there is no right or wrong pathway to follow in life, I need to stop worrying and comparing myself to other people in order to start living life in my own way, at my own pace. In my opinion you can get so much more out of life by planning things to look forward to, starting to do what you want rather than trying to make other people happy all the time and most importantly taking some time to make the most of the moment rather than worrying about the future. As long as you treat each day as a gift, grab it with open arms, cherish it, enjoy it to the fullest and do what matters now, happiness is bound to follow!
Apologies for the rambley post, this is what happens when I write freely and spontaneously without planning! It is something that has been playing on my mind for a while now so as always I'd love to know your thoughts :)
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